Sunday, April 11, 2010
its sundae...
and i am very bored...
i even typed "www.bored.com" when trying to get to blogger.com...
=.=
anyway to find somethings to do.. i decided to blog about ytd's event...
its the NP-POP
yeahh!!! NO MORE NP !!
its been 4 years since i joined this CCA during sec1...
i rmbed 2007's CCA open house...
nicholas and i were walking around to look for the CCa of our choice...
i initially wanted symphonic band...
but then nicholas wanted to join NP...
so because i scared i will become super lonely with no friends...
i pu NP as my first join...
(i was very insocialble at tat time, so i am not very gd at making friends)
anyway this is where my 4years nightmare began
hahahhas
i rmb first dae of Np..
went inside a classrm...
and mengzhou and kennard were there...talking about NP stuffs..
and then we were grped tgt and we have to say out the reasons why we joined NP...
i refused to say out the reeson..
cos first of all, its stupid...
2nd of all, i shy-shy..O.o
then after tat i just anyhow made up one reason...
and then we went to the E^2 hub to play whacko...
and those who losses would have to do forfiet..
which is pumping...
lols...
i forgotten wat we did after tat... drills i think.
but anyway.... life in NP was filled with horror...hahas..
and torturous...
at one point i really feel like quiting...
but then i changed my mind..
cos its very troublesome.. have to find new CCA and stuff...
so continued...
pulled through all the camps with my fears for vegetable and grp dicussions..
(I HATE GRP DISCUSSION THE MOST)
cos ppl will always ask me to speak up, esp huiling..)
and somehow i always grped up with her during camps...
and i mean ALL the camps..
sec1s march camp, sec1s sept outing, sec1 dec training camp, sec2s march camp, sec2 dec outing and many more....
its like almost all of the camps.. O.O
so after 1 year passed... eventually got my LCP rank...
and 2nd year begun....
got to know more about my squadmate...
sec2 was the year i talked to jiajun for the first time...
i think its the best year of all...
had lots of fun...
although i am in first aid which i felt VERY demoralised...
but ended up in armoury, which was SUPER encouraging..
i worked hard in my drills... though i think its not gd enough..
and its also the year where we first did WOC...
damn nervous...
but eventually got used to it..
and went through tough sessions of taiwanese drills...
i was a total noobie at taiwanese drills..
i always fail to do it properly...
ppl teach me until want to die...
but i dun wan to be the lousiest .. so i practised at home using umbrella..
and during the trainings... i succeeded and was very happy...
i also rmbed mengzhou said i uimproved alot...
was very happy and satisfied...
had my CPL promo test...
was very disappointed cos i nvr pass...
but at least i got my 3rd class... :)
and during my retest... i scored highest for WOC...
i was very proud of it... though its nth much now..
it was when i had a confidence boost...
however despite all these, life in NP as a cadet was very horriying as usual...
scoldings and pumpings.. until i really want to quit this DAMN CCA...
plus there was a point where my friend quit their own CCA..
so i wanted to folo..
but in the end nvr...
cos i feel tat if i quit now..
all my efforts i put into this CCa will be wasted..
so i survived NP for 2 years...
i personally think sec3 life is less tiring..
and more enjoyable..
had a squad which is the sec3 squad...
which i felt very sad..
not having a junior's squad..
but at least its btr than having no squad...
it is also the year i passed my promo test for the first time..
but i still having my doubts..
as to whether i really passed or not...
department oso changed to PnP.. i liked it alot..
cos it makes me feel liek very impt/...
but all things comes with a price..
and tat price is sleep...
i had to sleep very late cos i have proposal to finsih..
and its super troublesome...
and i also made a super big blunder ...
i chraged the irrechargable batteries in NP room..
and it caused the canteen and NCC room to have a blackout..
O.O WTF ??!! i was damn stupid lah...
but nvm its all in the pass...though i left a legacy.. hahs..
the socket in NP now cannot be used anymore..
WAHAHAH!!! lols..
POP 2009 was very embarrassing for me ..
and very sad indeed...
i was appointed as the contingent commander...
cos i am sec3 squad IC..
but then i was not very gd at giving instructions..
and with mingquan and jiajun's GL-ing (they are very irritating at tat time)
i felt very err.. helpless? and demoralised..
cos i keep on making stupid mistakes infront of juniors..
and some of my squadmates (should be quite obvious) keep on making comments..
saying should change CC (contingent commander)
i felt very sad.... VERY VERY sad...
i almost wanted to cry when ms chong noes about it and talked to me for awhile..
but i held back my tears though.. cos i am still in sch.
and it will be embarrassing..
but even so i lasted through the whole event...
though i felt miserable......
......
anyway... i always had these kind of feeling during my sec3 life,..
the feeling of dissapointment...failures... sadness...
its like everything i do always fail..
very demoralised... and one thing about me is tat...
even though i can do teh drills..
i cant teach them to ppl...
when i was told to teach ppl..
i will forgot how to execute the drills..
tat was wat happened during dec camp..
i was asked how to do a drill...
and i teached it to the whole grp..
wth... i teached the wrong thing..
and one of the sec2s corrected me... :( and was feeling very flustered,..
then another person wanted me to teach another drills..
i was teaching and if i am not wrong..
i saw ppl laughing...
i not sure if they are lauging at me or not...
but i felt VERY miserable...
haizzz... 2009 is a very sad year for me.... i hate this year alot..
sec4 was alittle better...
changed department and was training aids first IC..
had to prepare promotion test scoresheet..
though everything i prepared was like not needed o.O
wth~~ waste my time and effort...
but i found one of my forte and tat is air rifle..
i liked air rifle alot..
cos its fun and i do well in it...
though we lost the ARC ..... and felt angry and irritated...
its still quite fun..though..
also participated in campcraft comp..
but ppl keep on implying i am lousy... and would cause teh whole team to lose..
WTH... i was really angry..
its not like i laughed at u all the time... when u scored the lowest and the team got 4th position..
argghh.... anyway... had SSGT promotion test and passed again :)
and got my 1st class as well..
blah blah blah... got my own sec1 squad..
though i prefer sec2 squad..
and ytd.. had the NP POp and finally get to throw teh beret..
finally no more NP.....
so finally my NP years came to an end..
but i still have to work hard for my O levels..
i MUST WORK HARD FOR IT !!!
now tat NP is out of the way...
i must reach my goal of excelling better than tat person ....
>:) whoa wat a long post...
